i wanna lose weight!!!!

after spending the past couple of days drinking coffee and eating cake, i am more than ready to go to the weight watchers meeting. i dropped anjali off at her playgroup and drove downtown. i found parking in a parking garage on the 5th floor. weight watcher meeting, here i come!!!! But not so fast. the stupid elevaters are not working. are you serious??? i have to take the stairs? with a stroller? yes ma'am. you do. i did.....
bent over, very slowly and step by step i make my way down there... when i finally arrive i need my asthma inhaler. boy, am i out of shape. so off to the meeting. everybody loves my baby, she is soooo cute and such a good baby. she never cries unless..you take her to a ww meeting. after excusing myself a couple of times i realize i should go. i ask the lady to sell me the starter package so i can go home and start counting points. she says she can't do that and would have to explain it to me first. she tells me to come back in a half hour - after the meeting.
a half hour later i am at the store buying lettuce. i am devestated. whay can't nothing ever work out in my favor?? ever? i am so lost. i will never survive this year without chris. its very exhausting. i don't get much time to myself anyway but now there is no time at all.

at night i told chris all about it but he was more concerned about some pimples he got......i was so dissapointed and started yelling at him. he apologized and said he didn't know what to say. he feels like he can't help me anyway since he is so far away. in the end we both started crying and realized that we just really miss each other. we both have our ups and downs throughout the day and its not so easy to lift each other up when we can not even hug. i miss hugging him :(

i want to be stronger. especially for anjali. she finally got to talk to chris today. she was acting very shy and a little goofy as if she didn't know what to do with herself. it must be very confusing for her. my poor child. chris was happy to see her and after a few minutes anjali warmed up and they played a little bit until he had to go back to work.

anjali is taking a nap and i am waiting on the electrician. 4 lamps in the house are not working....

say a prayer