love

i am typing and typing, trying to find the right words. i just wanted to write a loveletter. i cant find the right words. there are memories though. remember when you would come by the alterations everyday to see me? remember our first kiss? remember when i made you propose twice because i thought you were drunk? ha ha. i remember the day you came home from iraq. how we cried ourselves to sleep that night. it was all so overwhelming. we couldnt believe that it was finally over. remember how i was late for our wedding?? ha ha. and how 21 days later i told you we were going to be parents. i remember. we are so blessed. i am so thankful for what we have. remember how we had to drive through the desert to get to irwin. wasnt that such a scary drive??? we thought we were lost. we didnt have any money then. remember the pontiac?? our ghettoride. ha ha. with the walmart A/C in it. but we made it and a couple of months later we had anjali. remember when you first held her? what it felt like. she is so perfect. so beautiful and smart. so amazing. what a blessing. i remember how she said dada first, after me teaching her mama all day...how proud you were. remember her first steps? on her chunky legs. boy was she chubby. remember when we landed in frankfurt only to find out our orders had gotten changed? so upsetting but we had each other and in the end that was all we ever needed. and again we were pregnant. how you looked at me with tears in your eyes telling me how much you loved me. we just had viana. so tiny and perfect. i will never forget. one of my greatest memories. i could think of a million more memories that i share with you! i guess what i am trying to say is, thank you for being in my life, i wouldnt ever want it any other way! you do make my day even when you're gone. i look at our children and i know we will be ok. we will have each other back, so soon and our love is only growing stronger!!!

i love you very much!!!!!